Hey you:
This trip really turned out well! Got your nagging, traveler's diary and now rant from you! Who said we should progress slower? :P Okay gonna stop ticking you off, although hopefully you are reading this while in a better mood, or... I owe you a meal for all this teasing then. Honestly though, let's hope by the end of this mail you are going to feel a bit better (or if not, feel evil towards me and then beat me later!), albeit you already did recover at the end of your own writing!
Which got me to my next point, isn't it good to just have a "let go" area/person? It's a lot more efficient to type out our anxiety/fear/anger in word rather than looping it inside our head, it simply won't work and you would always end up wondering "why am I feeling like this?" I am sure after you wrote it out, you re-pictured the good and bad times you had while in Europe with your friend, and it seems at the end it was just a few fleeting seconds of discomfort with him right? That's the beauty of letting it out, we will realize how trivia those things actually were (can easily forget by a simple change of mind/perspective) and won't let such small thing disturb our good feelings!
Since you said he's more familiar with Europe, no wonder he's taking less interest in things than you are, but yeah... it's his bad, he should've realized it's your first time being there and should be a lot more tolerant, I am sure he didn't mean it badly though, probably wanted you to see "real amazing things" (that's amazing in his opinion) during your trip there, he probably meant well for you! So don't be too hard on him/yourself. By the way, as long as you felt those pictures are worth taking, just do it! That's what travelling's about, and remember our discussion about art in the previous email? Never felt stupid towards what you think is "pretty" or "uncommon" simply because these are all subjective! Why should we conform our standard to what other people think is interesting right? (Otherwise I would stop listening to Death-metal and you probably would've easily given up singing right?) If we have the passion/love for certain artistic thing, take your time, and enjoy it. (Glad you did at the end, great that you are having fun!)
For now, just have to work on letting these things affect you less and less or let the "cycle" go faster, you will be fine, I trust you.
About your Euro tickets, I really can't comment on anything, since there aren't any details, perhaps it's something to do with "internet booking"? 但其實我只想跟你說, 錢能解決的東西都不是問題 especially while traveling at such a far away place, if you got tricked, well... lesson learned and move on! (I.e. please don't let me fall victim as well, if I ever go Europe, or I'll make sure you are with me!!) so Don't feel silly of yourself, and please, never call yourself "stupid" we all make silly mistakes, there's no need to use such a degrading word on you.
Oh and, I am so happy to see you making a list of "positive" things for your friend, it simply makes all the situation a lot better if you look for it, again, like I said above, you will always face the negatives/positives, just have to remember that without either of these 2 extreme, we will never feel "happy" although it also confirms how fleeting happiness is, but it also means sadness could pass by quickly! So let's enjoy the moment of happiness while it last, and when sadness comes, let's just let it go as soon as possible.
To be honest.... I don't ever want to ask about your eating habit dear, because then I won't be eating your left over food !!
"It's a good habit, it's a good habit, it's a good habit x 1000" (tries to hypnotize Wendy) Jokes aside, I simply trust your choices most of the time, especially things concerning your overall-heath well-being, I am confident that you know what you are doing, and have total faith in you.
You've had a lot of nice traditional food already, why not try something a bit different, your stomach might cry a tear of joy anyway right? Beside, it's only 1 meal, don't really worry about it, as for the riverside view, I am sure it would also be interesting hearing from your mouth! (Nono, not because you are going to be beside me, I swear!) (Yes, I realize you can do the same thing on phone) Also, for the lack of Budapest postcards, the images on it are mass produced right? I wouldn't mind images from "Wendy brand", it's the real unique and one of the kind image that could only exist in your camera. So post card or not, as long as you brought home a lot of happy memories and are willing to share with me, I am fine! (Still thank you for the ones you've already sent, I've never received postcards in my life before ha!)
I might not 100% always be here physically (as evident from today's offline message while you weren't feeling too nice, or the late reply of text), but like I said, if I am capable to, I will be there in person. I don't think I have to explain where my heart is 繫 on most of the time!
I don't know if what I wrote above offered you a different perspective for things... or simply annoyed you more, because I wasn't put in the same situation but offering a lot of random "advices" I can honestly tell you though these would've been the mind-set of me if I was put in similar situation!
I just finished eating the whole bottle of 煉乳 (contains 3200 calories in total) but I had to finish it... otherwise I'll be dreaming about it every night!! Yes this is getting into a nagging of my daily life soon, so I am going to stop, and let's share these while you are in London, hopefully can call you via Skype.
Look forward for you, not just in London, not just in Aus not just anywhere, but everywhere too :).
Truthfully
Me
P.S. Man, we will laugh a lot when we come back and read these emails in a few month, should be very interesting right?
P.P.S. I really want to say <3 you.
2010年8月20日 星期五
2010年8月9日 星期一
Letter to her #6
Hey you:
I think instead of notice, you should've put "Warning, the following is the perfect example of ELTS 6 :), because you did get your pass port! Ha! Kidding!" but please.... I am begging... at least give me paragraphs! (My only complain to you so far this trip, even though I am not on board ha!)
Granted this is more Wendlish than English, but as the fore-most expert on this particular... study! (as well as being the first only TWnese) I think I can still guesstimate (hint, this is not a real word) most of it. (Okay I promise from now on I am not gonna rip on your English in this email ha.)
Well, the fact that you are doing things differently, should be the best indication to you that you've changed, don't worry if you felt it's too "tiny" or if you felt it only modifies a little bit, you've just started changing a few months ago right? Give it time, I don't think I have to mention what position I would play during your evolution right? First I'll be that crazy nagging one, then silent listening one, then make you laugh one, then keep you company one, liking/missing/<3 you one and most importantly, white-wood one.
To be honest, it shouldn't be "Act like something, if you are doing something" for me at least. It's always been "At what stage of life, do what type of action"
Sometimes, when you know the time's not right/you aren't ready for something... don't force yourself to do it, or try and and "act like something" that you are not okay? Like you said, you will only ever get limited result if you didn't want to do it. :) We can only start learning about ourselves/what we want to do via knowing our limitations and accepting it.
To be honest, you coped with this teenage sullen stage (observation and guess for yours) a lot more active than I did, while you chose to actually achieve things on your priority list, I chose to sit there and let the world deal with itself, I believed that everything would eventually end... so there really isn't any point in doing anything, also... I just got into the beginning of Buddhism, which talked about more than 1 life, Karma, the concept of "nothingness" made me even more pessimistic about my own life. (perfect example of not being ready, and getting knowledge that aren't designed for my metal acceptance yet.)
But hey, we all got through right? and you turned into this wonderful person (don't you dare argue) that I like so much. And you still want to improve! Yay!
Hopefully our connection is bringing you new type of joy in life, for me, it's simply nice to know there's a person I care for having fun right at this moment, and that person cared about me while she's having fun. Of course, another simple joy came from looking at new things/situations/foods, and imagining what the other person would react to them. Best of all, I can hope and plan for future(yeah yeah yeah I am talking about future, bite me!) fun activities with her, travel, music, books, food etc.
To put it in the simplest way, I want you to know that you are fantastic just as who you are, your true self (no-one can show 100%, but you know what I mean here) there's no need to put extra set of camouflages or extra "layers" on top of who you are. Be more and more confident dear, I like, I miss, I want to spend time with that one true person that's inside/beyond/is Wendy.
Names/Families/Degrees/Positions etc. they are important while you want to survive(keyword) in the real world, but when we are together, let's just let our brains shut down and communicate with hearts it's simply a really good rest within this (pretty, albeit kind o messed up) world isn't it!
Ultimately, I just want you to be happy, and be yourself, there will be a lot of conflicts between "true self" and "society self" in the future, but finding a balance between it would always be our task, in fact, if you are living, you will always be trying to solve this puzzle. For now, I know I am totally comfortable, and look forward to spend any amount of time with you.
You were on a rail and you lost your track of thoughts?... Okay this is again getting no where, since we don't have a rail or track to let the train go on... the train's thought... get it?? I give up! So how exactly do you look at other people's food again? Miss Locker :P
The 4 steps... does it really make sense to you? Face it, Solve it, Drop it then Accept it?? What's to accept after you dropped it :P I would just do it Carnegie's way.
1: Imagine worst situation
2: Accept it
3: See if I can improve upon it
4: If can't, drop it, next question!
Other than wasting a box of tissue of yours, and screwing up the timing of telling you those "points" on MSN while in US... I had no regret for what I had typed to you :), you know I am cruel in certain ways. Upsetting you was never my intention, but you have to know that since we decided to be as truthful to one another as possible, it's going to be inevitable, but I will be more thoughtful next time, promise. I really, really dislike making you upset. "Best medicine taste bitter" but at least I could give it to you after you've had nice Pineapple/peaches or honey cake or something right? :)
I am dragging on again, but knowing that for every 1 less word I type, would be that 1 less second that I am imagining communicating with you... please forgive me for making this so long! Okay, time out, even I felt sicken by this sentence ha!! What exactly am I thinking!!!
I appreciate who you are/going to be, I respect who you are/going to be, I enjoy who you are/going to be, I support who you are/going to be and of course, I like you.
Truthfully
Me
P.S. You've been Europeanized! (I.E. English!)
P.P.S. Okok I already pinched myself for making fun of your email again... I am sorry!
MISS YOU!!! MUCH!!!
I think instead of notice, you should've put "Warning, the following is the perfect example of ELTS 6 :), because you did get your pass port! Ha! Kidding!" but please.... I am begging... at least give me paragraphs! (My only complain to you so far this trip, even though I am not on board ha!)
Granted this is more Wendlish than English, but as the fore-most expert on this particular... study! (as well as being the first only TWnese) I think I can still guesstimate (hint, this is not a real word) most of it. (Okay I promise from now on I am not gonna rip on your English in this email ha.)
Well, the fact that you are doing things differently, should be the best indication to you that you've changed, don't worry if you felt it's too "tiny" or if you felt it only modifies a little bit, you've just started changing a few months ago right? Give it time, I don't think I have to mention what position I would play during your evolution right? First I'll be that crazy nagging one, then silent listening one, then make you laugh one, then keep you company one, liking/missing/<3 you one and most importantly, white-wood one.
To be honest, it shouldn't be "Act like something, if you are doing something" for me at least. It's always been "At what stage of life, do what type of action"
Sometimes, when you know the time's not right/you aren't ready for something... don't force yourself to do it, or try and and "act like something" that you are not okay? Like you said, you will only ever get limited result if you didn't want to do it. :) We can only start learning about ourselves/what we want to do via knowing our limitations and accepting it.
To be honest, you coped with this teenage sullen stage (observation and guess for yours) a lot more active than I did, while you chose to actually achieve things on your priority list, I chose to sit there and let the world deal with itself, I believed that everything would eventually end... so there really isn't any point in doing anything, also... I just got into the beginning of Buddhism, which talked about more than 1 life, Karma, the concept of "nothingness" made me even more pessimistic about my own life. (perfect example of not being ready, and getting knowledge that aren't designed for my metal acceptance yet.)
But hey, we all got through right? and you turned into this wonderful person (don't you dare argue) that I like so much. And you still want to improve! Yay!
Hopefully our connection is bringing you new type of joy in life, for me, it's simply nice to know there's a person I care for having fun right at this moment, and that person cared about me while she's having fun. Of course, another simple joy came from looking at new things/situations/foods, and imagining what the other person would react to them. Best of all, I can hope and plan for future(yeah yeah yeah I am talking about future, bite me!) fun activities with her, travel, music, books, food etc.
To put it in the simplest way, I want you to know that you are fantastic just as who you are, your true self (no-one can show 100%, but you know what I mean here) there's no need to put extra set of camouflages or extra "layers" on top of who you are. Be more and more confident dear, I like, I miss, I want to spend time with that one true person that's inside/beyond/is Wendy.
Names/Families/Degrees/Positions etc. they are important while you want to survive(keyword) in the real world, but when we are together, let's just let our brains shut down and communicate with hearts it's simply a really good rest within this (pretty, albeit kind o messed up) world isn't it!
Ultimately, I just want you to be happy, and be yourself, there will be a lot of conflicts between "true self" and "society self" in the future, but finding a balance between it would always be our task, in fact, if you are living, you will always be trying to solve this puzzle. For now, I know I am totally comfortable, and look forward to spend any amount of time with you.
You were on a rail and you lost your track of thoughts?... Okay this is again getting no where, since we don't have a rail or track to let the train go on... the train's thought... get it?? I give up! So how exactly do you look at other people's food again? Miss Locker :P
The 4 steps... does it really make sense to you? Face it, Solve it, Drop it then Accept it?? What's to accept after you dropped it :P I would just do it Carnegie's way.
1: Imagine worst situation
2: Accept it
3: See if I can improve upon it
4: If can't, drop it, next question!
Other than wasting a box of tissue of yours, and screwing up the timing of telling you those "points" on MSN while in US... I had no regret for what I had typed to you :), you know I am cruel in certain ways. Upsetting you was never my intention, but you have to know that since we decided to be as truthful to one another as possible, it's going to be inevitable, but I will be more thoughtful next time, promise. I really, really dislike making you upset. "Best medicine taste bitter" but at least I could give it to you after you've had nice Pineapple/peaches or honey cake or something right? :)
I am dragging on again, but knowing that for every 1 less word I type, would be that 1 less second that I am imagining communicating with you... please forgive me for making this so long! Okay, time out, even I felt sicken by this sentence ha!! What exactly am I thinking!!!
I appreciate who you are/going to be, I respect who you are/going to be, I enjoy who you are/going to be, I support who you are/going to be and of course, I like you.
Truthfully
Me
P.S. You've been Europeanized! (I.E. English!)
P.P.S. Okok I already pinched myself for making fun of your email again... I am sorry!
MISS YOU!!! MUCH!!!
Letter to her #5
Hey you:
Disclaimer: This letter, other than 2nd paragraph, is filled with an amazing amount of abstract idea from a person that can't publish a book (I.e. he sucked, and chained a lot of silly ideas together) So, I really don't mind if you pretend this email don't' exist ha!
Finally! An email! (albeit no beginning and ending titles :P) from you that's a lot more touristy! These are perfect for the back of the post cards, since well... other than offering you some random facts about the country you've been to I really can't express myself further from this email ha! (I.E. This is good 流水帳ha!)
So yeah, it's not suprising that the city, although being a Slovakia's Capital, doesn't have many distinct culture of it's own, since the country's population is separated as 42% German, 41% Hungarian and 15% Slovak population, guess that's why the building is a mixture of European cultures, but the most interesting fact is, only poor people move to Slovakia during that time, perhaps that's also why none of the buildings are as glamorous as it could've been. Another fun fact is that Vienna took the "Crown Jewel" (Crown of Jesus) in 1783 in an attempt to strengthen the union between Austria and Hungary. Also most of their buildings were demolished during the WW2 bombing by the allies. Yep, they speak a mixture of Hungarian, German and Slovaki however Hungarian is their official government language.
I would've thought it might remind you of 圓明園 in China? Both being destroyed, although 圓明園 probably had a lot more interesting "left overs" with burnt marks and of course, the culture background of ours, guess that would also ignite the passion for our own distinct culture being destroyed. (Yes yes I realize 圓明園 is also a mixture of Western/Eastern design.) For me, I would've felt less sympathy/interest in the ruins of Bratislava, simply because it's a lot more distant in terms of both history and culture.
Isn't it amazing how a 2 hour train could take you to a completely different world? It really puts the "Walk a few steps aside, and then 海闊天空" in context, a simple change in location brought about such subtle change to your traveling experience, and to put it in a more... abstract term, a simple change in how you look at things, from a different perspective, then your experiences would be totally different as well, and hopefully giving you more comfort in the things that happened/happening/will happen.
We really are lucky to have traveled to so many different places at such young age... only by comparing, could we ever realize how good/bad our lives really are at this moment, I am sure this traveling experience would help shape you into a different person, giving you more and more understanding of the world as a whole, rather than just a few countries. Of course, seeing everything with your eyes is way different than reading/watching it (Except Wikipedia! Ha!)
Reading about your appreciation for "destroyed beauty" really showed how subjective arts are, and pretty much everything that's an expression of human emotions... can't be measured in a true and fair way, we all get different type of epiphany while looking at a piece of art work. At the end, I am glad that you enjoyed the less glamorous part of this trip :), it really showed that travelling with you will always be fun. After all, like we talked about on MSN, everything is an experience right? Unless you are dragging me to eat TWnese while in Antarctica or something, then I would get angry!! I want to eat penguins.
Lastly (yes yes, you sighed a relief, I know, I don't know how I managed to write so much abstract craps from a "fact" letter from you ha!) we could only appreciate the beauty of a "whole" building if we've seen it blown apart. We only ever learn about appreciation after something had been taken away from us. So.... London and Budapest should be super pretty for you now, relatively!
Took a look at Budapest's riverside night-sight, really awesome! It's very similar to SH's one, will show you some pictures.
Looks like it's time for movie, so I am gonna stop here... I know I've typed too much already XD.
Long-windedly (This is not a real word)
Me
P.S. I got a feeling you are challenging me to see how long I could write based on what you sent me :P
Disclaimer: This letter, other than 2nd paragraph, is filled with an amazing amount of abstract idea from a person that can't publish a book (I.e. he sucked, and chained a lot of silly ideas together) So, I really don't mind if you pretend this email don't' exist ha!
Finally! An email! (albeit no beginning and ending titles :P) from you that's a lot more touristy! These are perfect for the back of the post cards, since well... other than offering you some random facts about the country you've been to I really can't express myself further from this email ha! (I.E. This is good 流水帳ha!)
So yeah, it's not suprising that the city, although being a Slovakia's Capital, doesn't have many distinct culture of it's own, since the country's population is separated as 42% German, 41% Hungarian and 15% Slovak population, guess that's why the building is a mixture of European cultures, but the most interesting fact is, only poor people move to Slovakia during that time, perhaps that's also why none of the buildings are as glamorous as it could've been. Another fun fact is that Vienna took the "Crown Jewel" (Crown of Jesus) in 1783 in an attempt to strengthen the union between Austria and Hungary. Also most of their buildings were demolished during the WW2 bombing by the allies. Yep, they speak a mixture of Hungarian, German and Slovaki however Hungarian is their official government language.
I would've thought it might remind you of 圓明園 in China? Both being destroyed, although 圓明園 probably had a lot more interesting "left overs" with burnt marks and of course, the culture background of ours, guess that would also ignite the passion for our own distinct culture being destroyed. (Yes yes I realize 圓明園 is also a mixture of Western/Eastern design.) For me, I would've felt less sympathy/interest in the ruins of Bratislava, simply because it's a lot more distant in terms of both history and culture.
Isn't it amazing how a 2 hour train could take you to a completely different world? It really puts the "Walk a few steps aside, and then 海闊天空" in context, a simple change in location brought about such subtle change to your traveling experience, and to put it in a more... abstract term, a simple change in how you look at things, from a different perspective, then your experiences would be totally different as well, and hopefully giving you more comfort in the things that happened/happening/will happen.
We really are lucky to have traveled to so many different places at such young age... only by comparing, could we ever realize how good/bad our lives really are at this moment, I am sure this traveling experience would help shape you into a different person, giving you more and more understanding of the world as a whole, rather than just a few countries. Of course, seeing everything with your eyes is way different than reading/watching it (Except Wikipedia! Ha!)
Reading about your appreciation for "destroyed beauty" really showed how subjective arts are, and pretty much everything that's an expression of human emotions... can't be measured in a true and fair way, we all get different type of epiphany while looking at a piece of art work. At the end, I am glad that you enjoyed the less glamorous part of this trip :), it really showed that travelling with you will always be fun. After all, like we talked about on MSN, everything is an experience right? Unless you are dragging me to eat TWnese while in Antarctica or something, then I would get angry!! I want to eat penguins.
Lastly (yes yes, you sighed a relief, I know, I don't know how I managed to write so much abstract craps from a "fact" letter from you ha!) we could only appreciate the beauty of a "whole" building if we've seen it blown apart. We only ever learn about appreciation after something had been taken away from us. So.... London and Budapest should be super pretty for you now, relatively!
Took a look at Budapest's riverside night-sight, really awesome! It's very similar to SH's one, will show you some pictures.
Looks like it's time for movie, so I am gonna stop here... I know I've typed too much already XD.
Long-windedly (This is not a real word)
Me
P.S. I got a feeling you are challenging me to see how long I could write based on what you sent me :P
2010年8月6日 星期五
Review of this Taiwan trip.
US trip:
Houston
Experienced what it’s like living in luxury, with branded cloth, accessories and household items, including top of line technologies, spacious living areas, clean communities and of course, cars! Guess that’s people’s definition of achieving the “American Dream?” a measure of success?
It’s pretty materialistic, and requires an enormous upkeep for this type of life, for example, my cousin’s paying $900 US a month just for air conditions! That’s the price you pay for having it on for a whole day.
That’s the life I crave for I guess, and I got to admit, I do want to live like that, perhaps it’s time to move to US? Or simply try and be as rich as possible.
Kansas
Total opposite of Houston, granted uncle’s rich as well, but apart from his house, you will never be able to tell he’s actually financially capable, his life is the simplest form for everything, caveman like almost, ha! However within the simplicity, there are lessons to be learned about, well, how to live comfortably with yourself after retirement.
Waking up at 6am, eat super healthy none-oiled food, daily exercise consist of swimming and tennis, of course… the infamous stealing WiFi from neighbor! Or in the middle of the road. It was ritual of life for him, and I guess this is how you keep yourself sane during the super free period of retirement.
But going to a club to swim, play tennis and train in gyms… that’s the life I could go for, perhaps not during retirement but while working… kids are starting to sound like really dumb ideas now ha! I still think of my time as the more important one.
Chicago
It showed the normal life of living in a commercialized city, people move fast, but patiently and politely, it’s a very educated and well-mannered city basically a matured version of what the developing countries should be. Honestly there aren’t many things to say about this city as it’s just so… typical, and you can see this type of stereo type in any of the Hollywood movies, blockbuster books and of course video games. I do intend to work/live/study there though… the weather’s perfect, love the western feels too.
SH trip:
Met up with 2 year long friend :), got to say he hasn’t changed at all, except richer! It’s nice to see that the crazy city of SH haven’t changed him at all, or perhaps he’s simply a good adapter to the environment or maybe rich people have it a lot better in SH (which is what I observed). You could be eating at the top of the best restaurant in SH, seeing glamorous people chatting with one another, ordering fine cuisines from all over the world and purchasing luxuries from famous brands, yet, just outside of this building, you will see people showering on the street, handicapped beggars and of curse orphans.
I guess that’s the cruelty of opportunities.
You either survive or you lose everything, here aren’t “mediocre” in this city, it’s a jungle where weak get eaten. But do I want to try my luck there?! Fuck yeah.
The girls there are pretty awesome too, granted too tall for me :P, guess I should either get a new set of legs (i.e. a fancy car) or simply become rich enough. That’s the reality right? Love the boobs
Oh, and the fucking expo sucks.
HK trip:
Nothing special really, it taught me the life of living as a paid-employee within a huge organization, not a good way of earning money, but that’s how we all got to start. Unavoidable “socializing” (which is fun at my current understanding, shouting with them, drinking and simply errr talking none-sense.) this would probably make my future wife really angry: P, of course, unless I am bringing back a lot of cash! It’s an inevitable step of becoming rich and successful I guess, you just have to get used to it, and try to find people that you could trust within the group and people you could only “play” with, seeking out a true business partner is the true essence of these social events.
Working experiences:
Nothing much really, pretty much the standards that I had expected from reading/hearing and simulating other people’s experiences, just a stage that I have to go through, but working 1 week for 3 months experiences with “oversea” business consultations :), probably one of the best “reap” from what I well, didn’t “sow” ha!
Shopping:
Honestly, I am becoming more and more materialistic, granted I could still wear the 100NT cloths as night cloth and eat 50NT bento, but now I am expecting qualities from what I paid for, I don’t necessarily going to restrict my shopping pools to a specific range or ever put a restriction on the price of food, but now I understand that if you are earning a certain amount of money, you should be living in that certain standard. I could kneel to Calvin Klein!! Hail to Lee!! Salutation to Armani Exchange and of course god I love BVLGARI.
Changing of value:
Well for one 散仙態度 is gone, thanks to her (damn I wasn’t going to mention her until the very end), getting even more humble, listening to other people’s opinion, learned about not having to give an answer, and of course not mixing work and relationship together.
Road experiences:
Learned a bit more in US, got shout at in TC, fuck Panasonic GPS and man I want to drive.
Spiritual experiences:
Again, MR Chang showed me a lot of amazing things, I haven’t been the firmest doubter of these types of experiences but now I am kind of losing all my doubts.
Future goals:
Short terms:
1: Find a house in Sydney, live with sister maybe? Hopefully could be close to work, if not, car!
2: Car, probably have to start looking as soon as back to Canberra, something that saves fuels, or just steal it from brother.
3: Jobs, of course :), don’t really care what type it is, as long as it provide CPA qualified experiences. I got to eat with her right? Beside, this would keep parents really rich for a while.
4: Oversea trips, I do want to go with her.
Long terms:
1: CPA 3 years baby :), hopefully I could get it, and I must get it.
2: MBA in Chicago after 3 years
3: Trips oversea (hopefully she’s still around me… I really hope so)
Distant plans:
1: Army enlist vs Oversea.
Her:
You thought I have forgotten about her right? :P, but honestly… I could write a lot of reasons as to why she’s amazing, and a million reasons as to why I like her, but none explains it better than this single sentence.
I think about her everywhere I go now.
Houston
Experienced what it’s like living in luxury, with branded cloth, accessories and household items, including top of line technologies, spacious living areas, clean communities and of course, cars! Guess that’s people’s definition of achieving the “American Dream?” a measure of success?
It’s pretty materialistic, and requires an enormous upkeep for this type of life, for example, my cousin’s paying $900 US a month just for air conditions! That’s the price you pay for having it on for a whole day.
That’s the life I crave for I guess, and I got to admit, I do want to live like that, perhaps it’s time to move to US? Or simply try and be as rich as possible.
Kansas
Total opposite of Houston, granted uncle’s rich as well, but apart from his house, you will never be able to tell he’s actually financially capable, his life is the simplest form for everything, caveman like almost, ha! However within the simplicity, there are lessons to be learned about, well, how to live comfortably with yourself after retirement.
Waking up at 6am, eat super healthy none-oiled food, daily exercise consist of swimming and tennis, of course… the infamous stealing WiFi from neighbor! Or in the middle of the road. It was ritual of life for him, and I guess this is how you keep yourself sane during the super free period of retirement.
But going to a club to swim, play tennis and train in gyms… that’s the life I could go for, perhaps not during retirement but while working… kids are starting to sound like really dumb ideas now ha! I still think of my time as the more important one.
Chicago
It showed the normal life of living in a commercialized city, people move fast, but patiently and politely, it’s a very educated and well-mannered city basically a matured version of what the developing countries should be. Honestly there aren’t many things to say about this city as it’s just so… typical, and you can see this type of stereo type in any of the Hollywood movies, blockbuster books and of course video games. I do intend to work/live/study there though… the weather’s perfect, love the western feels too.
SH trip:
Met up with 2 year long friend :), got to say he hasn’t changed at all, except richer! It’s nice to see that the crazy city of SH haven’t changed him at all, or perhaps he’s simply a good adapter to the environment or maybe rich people have it a lot better in SH (which is what I observed). You could be eating at the top of the best restaurant in SH, seeing glamorous people chatting with one another, ordering fine cuisines from all over the world and purchasing luxuries from famous brands, yet, just outside of this building, you will see people showering on the street, handicapped beggars and of curse orphans.
I guess that’s the cruelty of opportunities.
You either survive or you lose everything, here aren’t “mediocre” in this city, it’s a jungle where weak get eaten. But do I want to try my luck there?! Fuck yeah.
The girls there are pretty awesome too, granted too tall for me :P, guess I should either get a new set of legs (i.e. a fancy car) or simply become rich enough. That’s the reality right? Love the boobs
Oh, and the fucking expo sucks.
HK trip:
Nothing special really, it taught me the life of living as a paid-employee within a huge organization, not a good way of earning money, but that’s how we all got to start. Unavoidable “socializing” (which is fun at my current understanding, shouting with them, drinking and simply errr talking none-sense.) this would probably make my future wife really angry: P, of course, unless I am bringing back a lot of cash! It’s an inevitable step of becoming rich and successful I guess, you just have to get used to it, and try to find people that you could trust within the group and people you could only “play” with, seeking out a true business partner is the true essence of these social events.
Working experiences:
Nothing much really, pretty much the standards that I had expected from reading/hearing and simulating other people’s experiences, just a stage that I have to go through, but working 1 week for 3 months experiences with “oversea” business consultations :), probably one of the best “reap” from what I well, didn’t “sow” ha!
Shopping:
Honestly, I am becoming more and more materialistic, granted I could still wear the 100NT cloths as night cloth and eat 50NT bento, but now I am expecting qualities from what I paid for, I don’t necessarily going to restrict my shopping pools to a specific range or ever put a restriction on the price of food, but now I understand that if you are earning a certain amount of money, you should be living in that certain standard. I could kneel to Calvin Klein!! Hail to Lee!! Salutation to Armani Exchange and of course god I love BVLGARI.
Changing of value:
Well for one 散仙態度 is gone, thanks to her (damn I wasn’t going to mention her until the very end), getting even more humble, listening to other people’s opinion, learned about not having to give an answer, and of course not mixing work and relationship together.
Road experiences:
Learned a bit more in US, got shout at in TC, fuck Panasonic GPS and man I want to drive.
Spiritual experiences:
Again, MR Chang showed me a lot of amazing things, I haven’t been the firmest doubter of these types of experiences but now I am kind of losing all my doubts.
Future goals:
Short terms:
1: Find a house in Sydney, live with sister maybe? Hopefully could be close to work, if not, car!
2: Car, probably have to start looking as soon as back to Canberra, something that saves fuels, or just steal it from brother.
3: Jobs, of course :), don’t really care what type it is, as long as it provide CPA qualified experiences. I got to eat with her right? Beside, this would keep parents really rich for a while.
4: Oversea trips, I do want to go with her.
Long terms:
1: CPA 3 years baby :), hopefully I could get it, and I must get it.
2: MBA in Chicago after 3 years
3: Trips oversea (hopefully she’s still around me… I really hope so)
Distant plans:
1: Army enlist vs Oversea.
Her:
You thought I have forgotten about her right? :P, but honestly… I could write a lot of reasons as to why she’s amazing, and a million reasons as to why I like her, but none explains it better than this single sentence.
I think about her everywhere I go now.
2010年8月1日 星期日
Letter to her #4
Hey you:
沒想到妳回的那麼快, thanks! telepathy failed me! but looks like Telepathy won't haha! If you get this joke, I owe you a coffee :).
其實, 能夠看到妳的消息跟字我也是非常的高興 (but please don't feel 妳必須喔 有時間再說!), they are just comforting for me. 但別擔心, 我不會沒收到妳的消息就整個人一天沒精神, 妳影響力夠 but never in negative ways, for me.
花了一整天自己一個人在台北, 把該做的事情都辦好後, 就自己一個人隨處亂逛亂吃, 很自由, 一個人的感覺是又回來了. 但是... (這是很typical 的自尋煩惱) 還是會想念妳的聲音, 妳陪在旁邊的身影, 妳的一舉一動. 雖然知道這樣最後是會讓自己稍微的遺憾, 可是怎可能不想妳呢? 而且想妳時所帶來的安心與快樂感, it's really worth it.
拿眼鏡想說順便A 一點contacts ha! 就知道買大東西 + 想說"我特地苗栗上來幫朋友拿ㄟ!!" 可以要點東西哈!. 可惜中央圖書館沒有我爸要的Journals, too bad, but no free wireless?! That was pretty bad. 很多高中生都在推銷"手工"小皮包 at 火車站... I usually just ask their phone numbers ha! Scares them away! 真有給的,就捐給旁邊的 ha!
很高興我是妳的someone now, 我會好好的保護住這一個榮幸, 好好的陪在妳身邊, 說過很多次...對妳的好...是起自於珍惜, 這幾天可能沒有那麼的純粹, 但相信我已經想通了. 其實...跟之前說的一樣, 前幾天只是想要一些"promise" 來安撫我心理的不安全感, 因為...有時候真的怕妳會就走了, 現在不需要了 :), 能陪妳多久就多久 and 好好的喜歡妳就好, 自自然然的發產八. 希望我們之間...可以好好的保持這一份有點傻, 有點過時, 但現代人非常缺乏的這種..."害羞"感.
一快起來...就真的會比較不珍惜一個人/東西... perhaps 現在的"速食"真的把我們的"anticipation/tolerance"搞的很低...太輕易了...就不珍惜了... 我不想這樣, 我不敢想像哪一天我不注重妳了, 我也不想考慮自己太多, 但...有時候還是一定會亂的, because you are gorgeous (want to see how many 同意字I can think of to describe you?!), so please, do hit me.
當妳的someone, I'll 努力讓妳覺得I am more than someone :), that's a promise, 因為妳對我來說...是unique someone. (eccentrically?! kidding :P ) 我知道我們都是喜歡自由的...但...我可以為了妳妥協...真的, 現在, 跟以後 (我沒在說謊).
I want to be yours.
一起八, 我相信我沒那麼差八 right? 三天黏在一起, GPS/Rain/Heavy bags, 妳都沒對我兇過. 謝謝妳. and sorry 讓妳累/氣到了!
約好去Sydney Hunter's valley bah, for now, and end of year, let's see if we can meet at HK, SG or just TW, I know it's too early to say this, but why not right?.
跟妳說, 我知道我的email 會跟我實際上見面的行為有出入...但是我心裏是真的這樣想的. 請原諒一個想在自己喜歡的女生面前表現的白痴八, 有時候會說不該說的話, 做不該做的事... or 少懂了一些事情. 請包容一下! 我已經很努力的在學習了! (先說好, 我完全不累... so ... sorry to you!)
每次想說"I must keep this email short"... 都失敗了哈哈...真的每次跟妳說話就有很多事情可以說,很多心理的話都可以講.
偷偷跟妳說...有時候打電話給妳並不是有什麼要說的, 只是想聽聽妳的聲音,有時候會想說 "約的都很formal...應該頂多聊個20 minutes bah?" but...自自然然的就...以我們的電話費養一家中華電信!
Sincerely
Me
P.S. 希望妳已經買了件厚外套了, 看起來是早晚溫差很大, 自己好好注意, rather not be cold than not carrying "heavy" cloth right?
P.P.S 我寫給妳是很自然的一件事, so 有時候不一定會等妳回信的, 通常都是..一有想法就打到Itouch 上面晚上整理一下之類的.
沒想到妳回的那麼快, thanks! telepathy failed me! but looks like Telepathy won't haha! If you get this joke, I owe you a coffee :).
其實, 能夠看到妳的消息跟字我也是非常的高興 (but please don't feel 妳必須喔 有時間再說!), they are just comforting for me. 但別擔心, 我不會沒收到妳的消息就整個人一天沒精神, 妳影響力夠 but never in negative ways, for me.
花了一整天自己一個人在台北, 把該做的事情都辦好後, 就自己一個人隨處亂逛亂吃, 很自由, 一個人的感覺是又回來了. 但是... (這是很typical 的自尋煩惱) 還是會想念妳的聲音, 妳陪在旁邊的身影, 妳的一舉一動. 雖然知道這樣最後是會讓自己稍微的遺憾, 可是怎可能不想妳呢? 而且想妳時所帶來的安心與快樂感, it's really worth it.
拿眼鏡想說順便A 一點contacts ha! 就知道買大東西 + 想說"我特地苗栗上來幫朋友拿ㄟ!!" 可以要點東西哈!. 可惜中央圖書館沒有我爸要的Journals, too bad, but no free wireless?! That was pretty bad. 很多高中生都在推銷"手工"小皮包 at 火車站... I usually just ask their phone numbers ha! Scares them away! 真有給的,就捐給旁邊的 ha!
很高興我是妳的someone now, 我會好好的保護住這一個榮幸, 好好的陪在妳身邊, 說過很多次...對妳的好...是起自於珍惜, 這幾天可能沒有那麼的純粹, 但相信我已經想通了. 其實...跟之前說的一樣, 前幾天只是想要一些"promise" 來安撫我心理的不安全感, 因為...有時候真的怕妳會就走了, 現在不需要了 :), 能陪妳多久就多久 and 好好的喜歡妳就好, 自自然然的發產八. 希望我們之間...可以好好的保持這一份有點傻, 有點過時, 但現代人非常缺乏的這種..."害羞"感.
一快起來...就真的會比較不珍惜一個人/東西... perhaps 現在的"速食"真的把我們的"anticipation/tolerance"搞的很低...太輕易了...就不珍惜了... 我不想這樣, 我不敢想像哪一天我不注重妳了, 我也不想考慮自己太多, 但...有時候還是一定會亂的, because you are gorgeous (want to see how many 同意字I can think of to describe you?!), so please, do hit me.
當妳的someone, I'll 努力讓妳覺得I am more than someone :), that's a promise, 因為妳對我來說...是unique someone. (eccentrically?! kidding :P ) 我知道我們都是喜歡自由的...但...我可以為了妳妥協...真的, 現在, 跟以後 (我沒在說謊).
I want to be yours.
一起八, 我相信我沒那麼差八 right? 三天黏在一起, GPS/Rain/Heavy bags, 妳都沒對我兇過. 謝謝妳. and sorry 讓妳累/氣到了!
約好去Sydney Hunter's valley bah, for now, and end of year, let's see if we can meet at HK, SG or just TW, I know it's too early to say this, but why not right?.
跟妳說, 我知道我的email 會跟我實際上見面的行為有出入...但是我心裏是真的這樣想的. 請原諒一個想在自己喜歡的女生面前表現的白痴八, 有時候會說不該說的話, 做不該做的事... or 少懂了一些事情. 請包容一下! 我已經很努力的在學習了! (先說好, 我完全不累... so ... sorry to you!)
每次想說"I must keep this email short"... 都失敗了哈哈...真的每次跟妳說話就有很多事情可以說,很多心理的話都可以講.
偷偷跟妳說...有時候打電話給妳並不是有什麼要說的, 只是想聽聽妳的聲音,有時候會想說 "約的都很formal...應該頂多聊個20 minutes bah?" but...自自然然的就...以我們的電話費養一家中華電信!
Sincerely
Me
P.S. 希望妳已經買了件厚外套了, 看起來是早晚溫差很大, 自己好好注意, rather not be cold than not carrying "heavy" cloth right?
P.P.S 我寫給妳是很自然的一件事, so 有時候不一定會等妳回信的, 通常都是..一有想法就打到Itouch 上面晚上整理一下之類的.
2010年7月31日 星期六
Confession 101
Right after the final straw that totally wrecked my trust in another woman, came the most stressful period of my life, I had devoted almost all my spare energy to her.
So it was a train wreck, my grades dropped, friends lost contact, and most importantly I got a huge void time to fill in my life.
Just when I was about to embark on a journey of physical enjoyments, having lost my faith with "care" for one another, came this one girl... you.
It was more than... well anything that would've usually attract me, your personality, interest, humors, talkativeness and... Gosh everything of yours radiated with... (how do you describe someone so special?)
For once, I was looking at a girl for who she is, not how she looked, there weren't any prejudices from me at all... and it felt great.
Then came the 2nd night we met... I think that's when I felt "in love?" "deep?" for you. Not out of sympathy but simply finding the feeling of connection with another again. It felt transparent, it was just us, simply us, nothing separating our feelings, pasts or thinking.
At that moment, I started caring again, about another person, about life, about myself, about everything I've got so far, I appreciated everything again. Thank you.
Then each moment we spent together, I had forgotten about the flow of time each time, slight exaggeration but it's just... any time I am communicating with you, I feel a sense of safety, comfort and peace.
Soul mates?
More than that.
you are the greatest thing to have come across my "life path" at this moment of time, and well, what's the point of living if I don't choose to seize you right now?
So, please, just let me hear the answer from your mouth, no implications, no humor shield, no delays just pure and simple, for this question.
Would you, be the person that I could treasure, the person that I care for, the person that I could share and that person that I promise to keep her happy?
Would you...
Be that person?
So it was a train wreck, my grades dropped, friends lost contact, and most importantly I got a huge void time to fill in my life.
Just when I was about to embark on a journey of physical enjoyments, having lost my faith with "care" for one another, came this one girl... you.
It was more than... well anything that would've usually attract me, your personality, interest, humors, talkativeness and... Gosh everything of yours radiated with... (how do you describe someone so special?)
For once, I was looking at a girl for who she is, not how she looked, there weren't any prejudices from me at all... and it felt great.
Then came the 2nd night we met... I think that's when I felt "in love?" "deep?" for you. Not out of sympathy but simply finding the feeling of connection with another again. It felt transparent, it was just us, simply us, nothing separating our feelings, pasts or thinking.
At that moment, I started caring again, about another person, about life, about myself, about everything I've got so far, I appreciated everything again. Thank you.
Then each moment we spent together, I had forgotten about the flow of time each time, slight exaggeration but it's just... any time I am communicating with you, I feel a sense of safety, comfort and peace.
Soul mates?
More than that.
you are the greatest thing to have come across my "life path" at this moment of time, and well, what's the point of living if I don't choose to seize you right now?
So, please, just let me hear the answer from your mouth, no implications, no humor shield, no delays just pure and simple, for this question.
Would you, be the person that I could treasure, the person that I care for, the person that I could share and that person that I promise to keep her happy?
Would you...
Be that person?
Letter to her #2
First of all, thank you for being flexible and understanding, I know I will often spew out a bunch of stupid things when I am talking too fast or putting too much emphasis on my feelings only and disregard what the listeners could feel from my words.
There’s no way for me to become flawless in front of every/anyone, best I can do is keep shaping/improving myself as time goes on, try and become less smart but gain more wisdom.
It’s a process that I have to go through, and obviously there’s bound to be more blunders on the way, but that’s how it is, as a limited person, the most productive thing I could do is keep trying, and hopefully improve myself if needed.
However, this doesn’t mean I will modify my fundamental principles just to please people; it would take a rather dramatic event for me to want to change the very foundation that made me, these are the rules that governed me for a long while and I am not about to give it up.
What’s the point of this article you ask? Well, I don’t know if this is enough of a representation of 誠意, or do I have to write this in blood, then eat it :P. I just want to show you that I promise I’ll improve with you, or simply accompany you, or even just look from the sideline.
I’ve known that happiness don’t last forever for a while now, and it’s the disappointments in life that made the happiness we experienced that much more precious. That’s how I chose to live my life as a person who simply enjoy every moment of joy as much as possible but will never look for the same amount of joy again. However, if I could improve myself beyond what I have (which = always) I will do it.
對, 我相信我的態度在特定人的面前是一個死小孩, but 我自己覺得以這態度來跟這些人對話時, 才是我最可以放鬆 + 誠懇的時候, 嘴巴上說出來的是直接經過我的內心, 是沒有修飾過也沒有考慮到後果的話題. 這是我很少在人面前扮演的角色. 可能有點上癮了八, and越來越放肆了.
想想也是我自己走進了黑白分明的路了, 之前幾次都是完全的以特別裝扮過的我來跟別人對話, 這次非常的赤裸裸, 但其實, 只要是太極端的都會有反彈. 我自己應該好好的接受”活在灰色” 這個論點, 當然也是要看情況而定.
Lastly, 真的只能說, I promised I want a relationship, something that could last a lot longer than a few days/weeks/months, that’s why I will work as hard as I could to improve myself, for every experience, I will learn from it, again, I know this is simply a type of gamble from me, you can look at my 誠意 and take your time to decide everything, but in the end, I know I’ll at least become a (possibly) better person. You are a person that’s very special, so of course you need to deserve more.
P.S. 謝謝妳對我直話直說
There’s no way for me to become flawless in front of every/anyone, best I can do is keep shaping/improving myself as time goes on, try and become less smart but gain more wisdom.
It’s a process that I have to go through, and obviously there’s bound to be more blunders on the way, but that’s how it is, as a limited person, the most productive thing I could do is keep trying, and hopefully improve myself if needed.
However, this doesn’t mean I will modify my fundamental principles just to please people; it would take a rather dramatic event for me to want to change the very foundation that made me, these are the rules that governed me for a long while and I am not about to give it up.
What’s the point of this article you ask? Well, I don’t know if this is enough of a representation of 誠意, or do I have to write this in blood, then eat it :P. I just want to show you that I promise I’ll improve with you, or simply accompany you, or even just look from the sideline.
I’ve known that happiness don’t last forever for a while now, and it’s the disappointments in life that made the happiness we experienced that much more precious. That’s how I chose to live my life as a person who simply enjoy every moment of joy as much as possible but will never look for the same amount of joy again. However, if I could improve myself beyond what I have (which = always) I will do it.
對, 我相信我的態度在特定人的面前是一個死小孩, but 我自己覺得以這態度來跟這些人對話時, 才是我最可以放鬆 + 誠懇的時候, 嘴巴上說出來的是直接經過我的內心, 是沒有修飾過也沒有考慮到後果的話題. 這是我很少在人面前扮演的角色. 可能有點上癮了八, and越來越放肆了.
想想也是我自己走進了黑白分明的路了, 之前幾次都是完全的以特別裝扮過的我來跟別人對話, 這次非常的赤裸裸, 但其實, 只要是太極端的都會有反彈. 我自己應該好好的接受”活在灰色” 這個論點, 當然也是要看情況而定.
Lastly, 真的只能說, I promised I want a relationship, something that could last a lot longer than a few days/weeks/months, that’s why I will work as hard as I could to improve myself, for every experience, I will learn from it, again, I know this is simply a type of gamble from me, you can look at my 誠意 and take your time to decide everything, but in the end, I know I’ll at least become a (possibly) better person. You are a person that’s very special, so of course you need to deserve more.
P.S. 謝謝妳對我直話直說
Letter to her #3
Hey you:
Thanks for the email, knew you would send one though :), because... I've been typing one this whole day, and I tried it in Chinese, so bear with me!
記得喔, 我們沒有一定要互相回, 有時間, 很閑的時候再說 yeah? Deal.
Thanks for the email, knew you would send one though :), because... I've been typing one this whole day, and I tried it in Chinese, so bear with me!
記得喔, 我們沒有一定要互相回, 有時間, 很閑的時候再說 yeah? Deal.
Even though we started, it should still be 初衷不變, 那我幹麻一直想要提呢? 我的自信跟安全感不知道到跑去哪裡了.
I really am a guy after all.
Did it happen too fast?
Yes, 我被沖昏頭了
Do I regret it?
Nope, 但我不該一直提, 我想要在妳身邊的話, 我就不能自私
Do you want to use her?
Searching through my heart, my brain and my soul, I can 100% say that. No. Never.
So what are you afraid of?
我們知道一個人對自己的理解是有限的, 我不覺得很多人可以對自己100%的誠實, so 我很怕我自己內心是不是完全pure.
So should I let this continue? I know the longer we drag this on, the higher chance of us being completely hurt again.
Do you want to be with her?
Yes, honestly through everything, share her anger and her sadness, I want to see her smiles. But…
現在是我最真的一句話, 假如妳能在別人身邊或自己一個人時achieve an even brighter smile…我會走, 我必須走. 但, 我相信我可以帶給妳快樂.
想想, 我常常笑妳的框框很多, 妳也常常笑我沒自信, 但其實 我也很會給自己限制.
我真的很自私, 我們都想保護自己, via using “confirmations” “說反話” “leaving room for future” and of course “never know, who knows” : ) 我們都被傷到怕了八!
我現在的決定是, 跟第一次說喜歡妳的那時候一樣, 我不想太理性的看待我們了, 我只要知道我現在已經更準備好了, 可以為了妳, 我喜歡的妳, 把自己的保護網撤下, 赤裸裸的進去這個relationship. 真的誠心誠意的面對妳了. 是, 我承認我真的是迷戀上妳了.
受傷?
As long as she’s happy.
其實我更想跟妳說, 妳讓我重新感受到”相信”一個人的可能性 (that’s not friends or families)
我想讓妳也體會到我從妳身上感受到的這份溫暖, 我不知道妳曾經被傷的有多深, 我也不想去問了, 我也不知道我表現出來的方式能不能,是不是妳能,想接受的方式. 但是, 我只能讓妳看到很真實的我.
我知道我現在是很主觀的想讓妳感受到兩個人一起的溫暖, 雖然妳可能是已經看的很開了. 但是, 從妳突然的害羞, 體貼的行為 (minus the pinching! Kidding, I do enjoy it, honest), 彼此間的小小默契, 妳眼神裡的調皮/喜悅, 甚至是妳的不耐煩. 一切的一切是如此的…讓人著迷, 惹人憐惜. 這是妳對我好的證明, 也是讓我努力的最大動力.
我還是傻的,還是自私的, 也還是不成熟的. 但, 在互相體諒之間, 互相的溝通之間, 相信我們是可以一起成長.
能夠陪在妳身邊, 真好! 能一起走多久就多久吧! 我再也不想執著於文字,語言或身體上的 “保證”了, 我再也不怕了. 佛教的, 書上的relationship 道理, 終於又想起來了, 對不起, 花了段時間, 希望沒有嚇到妳.
我, 很容易固執, 很容易陷入我”自以為是” 的標準下而不接受別人的想法, 我會改, 我會讓自己成為一個能夠更深入考慮全局的人. 我會努力的把做決定的考慮時間, 跟事情的重要性好好的取得一個balance.
還有就是不要把對工作的態度跟對人的態度混在一起, there’s no need to always give an answer, and no need to get an answer in a relationship.
其實, 我們真的都遇到很好的時機, 這段分開是有意義的, 假如這幾天還是跟妳黏在一起的話, 不知道我會做出/說出什麼很蠢的事/話. 謝謝那個無形的力量, 讓我麼的開始, 過程, 停頓, 都如此的"perfect" 我很感謝我們的認識是先從最近的心靈距離開始的 and nothing happened that night, otherwise it would've totally ruined us. 後來的MSN/Phone long distance 更讓我們互相了解了對方很多, 少了一般"肉欲" 的誘惑. 可能就是這樣讓我們的發展在台灣一見面就變的很快八!不能太快, 真的. (I am not just saying it to please you) But, I am not going to give up back to stage 1! At least I am not going to let go of your kiss.
This gonna sound cheesy, but you really are beautiful, 請諒解一下我的急 :) I am 21! 但I promise I'll keep it slow and actually look for the most perfect and natural time in Sydney, we've got a long time to go... I hope.
對不起了, even though you said you don’t feel pressured in this relationship at all, 我相信我問妳的一些問題不可能是對妳沒有影響的.
But do excuse my curiosities : ) I have no bad intentions.
我是個人, 一個曾經怕過的人, 我會更控制自己的情緒, 更有自信, 更有能力!
本來想說, 頭有點暈的時候可以寫的更多, 沒想到大概就是這個樣子, 可能是對自己越來越誠實了, 不需要酒精的”裝傻”.
謝謝妳, again, 能認識妳, 真好. 好好的在Europ 玩,take care! 獻上全部的祝福, 全部的思念!
Sincerely
Me
P.S. 我說過我不執著文字了, 但是, 打這一整篇的時候真的都是在想著妳, 好想好想妳.
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